So, My friend, Deb and Janet and I met at Deb's hosue yesterday and Janet and Deb have been doing a Kay Arthur Bible study and they invited me to do it with them and it was so awesome!! I've decided I need to get a devotion that I can work on at home of hers. One thing I learned was that there are different meanings for these words: transgressions= rebellion, sin= error/wandering, and iniquities= crooked dealings. It was cool to see how David used each one through Psalm 51 and to see how he meant each one. The main theme was about rebellion and how each of us needs to make a choice, to either follow God and receive His blessings, or go our own way, knowing that its wrong, and deal with the consequences of our actions. No matter what, if we know something is against God's word, and yet we do it anyways because it "feels good" or its "easier", there WILL be consequences. God didn't make us robots, He loves us and wants us to follow Him, but He gave us the ability to choose Him. He doesn't want a forced relationship with Him. He wants us to come to Him and do His will willingly.
So, its been over a week now that my daughter has been back home and its so good, most days, to have her back!! It is a struggle becaue she has been through so much on the streets in those 3 weeks she was gone and there's a gap between us that seems will never mend, but I know that God is still working in her, wether she realizes it yet or not!! She has expressed some desire to go back to Grand Rapids, even told em she's moving there in July(when she turns17) anyways, so why not just let her go now........Well, I'm trying to get her into some Christian counseling, which I've been playing "phone tag" with the lady, but I will try again tomorrow and hopefully get that started soon. The cost for her PACE homeschooling is $400, so we will have to wait for that for a month or so to get that together. Life has just been such a struggle this last week though and I ask for continued prayers for all of us. theres been a bit of fighting between the two girls, and my husband and I have gotten into arguments cuz Of issues with Kayla, but as much as life gets hard, I know that God is that much good and the only way I can get out of bed some days to fight another day is through God's grace and His goodness!!! Praise God for His love and His goodness, His mercies anew each morning!!!!!!!!
Praise God, my daughter is home!!!!!!!! My husband went out searching for hours today and eventually it all payed off!!!! I got the news about 6pm that he was coming home with my daughter! Now, please continue to pray that God will lead me to a godly counselor for her and that she will get the help she needs. Thanks again for all of your prayers and support during this time....... Kandi and Family
Please, if any of you our here in blog land pray then do so now and if you have already been praying for my missing daughter and all I thank you for your continued prayers!!!!! My mom, sister, and I went down to GR to search again for Kayla and we had good news and bad news given to us. First we found some guys, outside an apt. complex who said they knew Kayla, well come to find out, after following some leads, it was a different Kayla. BUT this other Kayla knew my Kayla. The good news is that she saw her two days ago. The bad news is that there's a whole mess involving prostitution and drugs with the guy that Kayla has been seen with. Pray for Kayla's safety, pray that if this guy has her using drugs and turning tricks for him that he will be brought to justice and that in a moment of clarity Kayla will call me or be able to get out!! My heart breaks for my little girl and I wish I knew exactly where she was so I could go rescue her. We thinkw e have an address and we went there but it was dark and noone was home..........please pray that this is where she is and that the detectives will find her and she will be returned home safe!!!!......Thanks for all your prayers in this..........
Thanksgiving has hit us once again, but everything is different this year. I got out of bed, and have done everything I'm "supposed to" and the day has come and is almost over, with the turkey and trimmings, everyone happy, chatting away and yet there's a hole, a hole so very deep and my soul screams out and I want to just shut my eyes and make everything go away. My daughter is still not here, still no word from her, no idea where she is.I have spent hours beggin God, please Lord, bring her home to me, please by some miracle that only You can work out, let her walk in the door today, or at the very least call me so I know she's alive and safe.......but nothing happens........I secretly keep glancing at the phone, trying to will it to ring and have her voice at the otehr end, yet nothing happens.....I'm not mad at God, I know He is doing something, in someone.......but the hurt is getting deeper and deeper and I'm dealing with it not so well anymore. My heart is broken, the dull pain never going away anymore, sleep comes, but fitfully, full of nightmares and wandering thoughts of her. Gos please, I come before You today, once again asking for safety for Kayla, asking that wherever she is, she is alive and being taken care of. May You protect her, fill her with your love today, may You impress upon her heart my love for her and the sickness I feel with her not here..........Please Lord, give me the sanity I need to keep making it through another day, another hour...........You know my heartache.........You know my fears, and You love her way more than I do, so I release her to You again this day.........
Psalms 181-2 1 I love you, O LORD, my strength. 2 The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn [a] of my salvation, my stronghold.
Footnotes: Psalm 18:2 Horn here symbolizes strength.
